I know I said I wouldn't update until Friday, but alas, here I am. I had a late lunch with a good friend of mine who is preggers and was updating her on all that's been going on these past few weeks. Thinking about it, made me kind of want to post my thoughts about today and my anticipation of tomorrow's appt. I got a phone call a couple of hours ago confirming my appt tomorrow. I really hadn't thought about it all day (until I happened to mention it to my friend earlier) and that is mainly due to the fact that I started my first day at my new job today.
I kind of started off on the wrong foot considering I was 20 minutes late for work... my first day... geeze what an impression that makes. And I know there's really no good excuse when you're trying to make a good impression, but I honestly underestimated traffic. Then there was this huge traffic jam on one of the main roads leading out of my subdivision. And I was so pissed sitting there, twiddling my thumbs, moving 5 feet every 5 minutes. After nearly 20 minutes sitting there hardly moving, I decided to veer off the main road and drive further out of the area just so I could hop on the tollway hoping the traffic was a little lighter. Well, the 10 minute drive to get to the damn tollway didn't help and just set me further back from the city, which in turn made me drive farther.... ughhh! Then there was traffic on the tollway to top it off. I tell ya, when it rain, it pours. Needless to say, as soon as I got a chance (waiting at a red light), I texted my boss and told him I was gonna be late and apologized in advanced. I was not a happy camper :( Luckily, the patient ended up cancelling their appt so I didn't have them waiting on me when I arrived at the office. But still... great 1st impression I made on the boss. Other than that little mess this morning, the rest of the day at the office pretty much ran smoothly. We had a little hiccup with our medical equipment, but were able to work through it. I need to mention this is a brand new medical office that just opened up a month ago, so they are still trying to work out the kinks. Anyways, I'm still trying to pick up some extra work and so I had a meeting scheduled with one of my previous employer's after finishing today's clinic. I knew she would welcome me back, but she made it pretty clear that she did not enjoy my little hiatuses of going back and forth working for her (I have quit there twice before due to a better job opportunities). Third time's a charm, eh? I wish I could make her see that. LOL... But either way I'm done with that other type of work. Though they pay really well and have good benefits, it is quite unstable, and I cannot afford to take another work risk. I need a steadier job and something that will work for me long-term especially when LO comes. I had to make her understand that and basically asked for my old job back (a little short of groveling, I might add). We ended up agreeing on a one-year contract to put her mind to ease so that she knows I'm serious. I don't like contracts but what can I do? I need my job back. So with that, I now have 3 jobs = 3 days a week. I start next week.
On to other thoughts... my 2nd follicle search is scheduled for tomorrow and I'm getting nervous. I just took an OPK and it was negative. I have a bit of watery CM but I'm not trying to read much into it. BBTs are still a little wonky and I haven't seen a definate O yet. I've been massaging and touching my left side hoping to bring positive energy to Lefty, though I don't know how much it will help. This may be our last chance for a medicated cycle this season due to our financial situation and it makes me a little sad. Of course we are not giving up TTC. We are just going back to doing it the "old-fashioned" way, so that means I will definately need to start on my WL. Perhaps in the summer, we can reasess our situation, see where we are at in terms of finances, school, work, weight loss and then maybe pay a visit to the doctor again. I'm seriously considering transferring to an RE (I know some may think I should've done this long, long ago but I had faith in my OB/GYN). I don't know if that would cost more considering I may be doing more monitoring. I am still hanging on to the script that Trudy wrote for me yesterday. In case this cycle was unsuccessful, she wrote me one for 100mg Clomid. I don't know if I will fill it, but will keep it tucked safely anyway. I feel sad ending today's entry on this note, but it is what it is. I'm just keeping my FX that cycle #2 is our cycle. Pretty please, with a cherry on top? ;)
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