Grrrr..... I'm so frustrated! Tonight kicks off my birthday weekend and I can't uncork a friggin' wine bottle! I f-ed up when trying to open it with one type of corkscrew. Then tried the manual corkscrew and bent it, which just mutilated the cork in the process. Now I've been stabbing at the cork stump with a knife for the past 10 minutes! Hubby just walked in the door in the midst of a wine bottle butchering. I just want a drink.... He says he can get it open but there will probably be cork fragments in the wine. F*** it, I just wanted a glass, now I just want to get drunk. I think there's more behind this frustration than meets the eye.
FAIL
End vent.
Mom... In Training
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
What Birthday?
My birthday is Saturday and I haven't planned anything. It's kind of making me feel a little sad. Why hadn't I planned anything you ask? Well, I've been so focused on TTC that I really didn't want anything for my birthday (or for Christmas for that matter) because all I really want is one thing. Last month, hubby and my family asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I told them other than getting PG nothing really. Same for my birthday. DH started asking me earlier this month what I wanted to do. I told him I hadn't even thought about it. I'd been so consumed with TTC that I didn't even want to plan anything. On top of that, I was being so optimistic that I was convinced I'd be PG by now (hoping that our last cycle had worked) and so it's not like I could go drinking or anything. Well now that I know that our last cycle was a bust and with my recent layoff, I'm kinda regretting that I didn't plan anything. I know it's not too late and I can use this week to plan something, but I hate leaving things to the last minute, especially when party planning. And now that my actual bday falls on a Saturday it makes it even more frustrating. Saturdays are the best for planning parties. So now what?
I was talking to a friend yesterday and I mentioned that I'd like to perhaps go to a wine bar for my birthday. She suggested we go check out a couple of local places, since I had never been to one before. But I wasn't sure if hubby had any plans for dinner for me that night. We were at my sister's house this past weekend and she kind of let it slip that something was going down on Saturday. By the look on hubby's face, I put two and two together and figured out that he had planned something for me. Now, not to discredit DH's ideas and planning, but I 'm kind of nervous about what he has planned, as he's not exactly a "planner". I haven't asked him much in regards to this weekend cause I assume it was supposed to be a surprise, but I finally caved and told him I wanted to invite some friends out to celebrate my birthday and if I should plan it for a certain time. He told me after 10 should be fine. I wrote down a list of friends and their numbers and handed it to him and said "if you've got something planned, these are the people I'm inviting for later on", hoping he'd get the hint. I hoped if he was inviting friends, he'd only invite my closest since I'm not in the mood for lots of people. Anyways, I've gotten off track...
So today I went by a potential wine bar and got some info. Turns out they don't have any reservations for this weekend. I told hubby I'm thinking about having it there but they had a min $200 food and beverage purchase to reserve. He asked whose footing the bill? And maybe he is still trying to play off the whole surprise bday party thing, but I told him that I would since it's my party (and I can cry if I want to). And now I feel like I shouldn't plan anything after all, but I feel so helpless. I wish I was PG already so that I don't have to worry about s*** like this anymore :( It just seems so petty and I wish I wasn't turning another year older. And now the sadness is kicking in once again. Dammit.
I was talking to a friend yesterday and I mentioned that I'd like to perhaps go to a wine bar for my birthday. She suggested we go check out a couple of local places, since I had never been to one before. But I wasn't sure if hubby had any plans for dinner for me that night. We were at my sister's house this past weekend and she kind of let it slip that something was going down on Saturday. By the look on hubby's face, I put two and two together and figured out that he had planned something for me. Now, not to discredit DH's ideas and planning, but I 'm kind of nervous about what he has planned, as he's not exactly a "planner". I haven't asked him much in regards to this weekend cause I assume it was supposed to be a surprise, but I finally caved and told him I wanted to invite some friends out to celebrate my birthday and if I should plan it for a certain time. He told me after 10 should be fine. I wrote down a list of friends and their numbers and handed it to him and said "if you've got something planned, these are the people I'm inviting for later on", hoping he'd get the hint. I hoped if he was inviting friends, he'd only invite my closest since I'm not in the mood for lots of people. Anyways, I've gotten off track...
So today I went by a potential wine bar and got some info. Turns out they don't have any reservations for this weekend. I told hubby I'm thinking about having it there but they had a min $200 food and beverage purchase to reserve. He asked whose footing the bill? And maybe he is still trying to play off the whole surprise bday party thing, but I told him that I would since it's my party (and I can cry if I want to). And now I feel like I shouldn't plan anything after all, but I feel so helpless. I wish I was PG already so that I don't have to worry about s*** like this anymore :( It just seems so petty and I wish I wasn't turning another year older. And now the sadness is kicking in once again. Dammit.
Friday, January 25, 2013
Med. Cycle #2 A Bust
Today is CD 3, which means our second medicated cycle didn't work. Bummer. I'm sad and disappointed, but surprisingly not as upset as I thought I'd be. Maybe it's still too early to have sunken in. I don't know. Last night I told DH, "F*** it, let's go for margaritas". I had been really good this past cycle and hadn't had anything since starting the meds (so basically since New Years). And tonight we are going for drinks again at my favorite Cajun restaurant (I've been craving crawfish). I'm disappointed that this cycle didn't work. I felt good about this cycle, like this would be the one. I was staying positive and optimistic. But alas, destiny had other plans. What can I do but just accept it. I think that's why I'm so ho hum about it. AF showed on what would have been CD 27, so maybe it's a sign that my girly parts are now starting to get the hang of things. I asked hubby, what his thoughts are going into the next cycle: Did he want to do meds? Did he want to try winging it? He basically said it was up to me since it's my body (I explained it's his body too and his decision as well, but he wants what's best for me... such a caring hubby :)) My decision... Going back to square one. For me, that basically means TTC a la natural. It's a good thing I bought all those OPKs. I'm definately gonna be needing them. I also have to mention that I have a stash of HPTs as well. Up until yesterday, I was convinced that AF was implantation bleeding. How crazy is that?! I was like a madwoman Wednesday, desperately researching signs and symptoms of implantation. I was squeezing my fingers and toes crossed, hoping that the spotting wouldn't last past the 3rd day. AF has been really light, even for today CD 3. Usually I'd be at a medium flow by now. But it's been fluctuating between spotting and and light flow off and on for the past 3 days. I guess that's why I have been torturing myself with thinking it's the implantation. But I can't find anything that says that implantation bleeding lasts past 2 days. So I have to accept that AF has reared her ugly head. And now the cramps have been starting. Yeah, definately a visit from the red-headed beeyotch. LOL. So on to the next cycle.
I have set a daily alarm for 6:30 am. I'm going to be adament about taking my temps at the same time each day. My charts have recently been zig-zaggy, and I think alot has to do with my waking times. I don't have a steady schedule so some days I sleep in and others I have to wake up early to go to work. So it kinda makes my charts look wonky (plus the meds aren't helping either). So now that I'm off the meds and I'll be temping at the same time each morning, I'm hoping my chart will look better. But funny that today I had a temp spike. I'm continuing my regular meds as prescribed by my doc. That includes levoxyl every morning, metformin every other day, and dostinex once a week. If I ovulate this cycle, I will also take the progesterone two days after O, because I feel like that's helping to regulate my cycle. I am going to try and monitor my CM everyday (I say try because I keep forgetting to check it in past cycles) and will more than likely start using OPKs starting on CD 7 since FF seems to think that's when my predicted O days are. And then we will have to plan TI accordingly. So timing and scheduling will still be very important this cycle. That won't be going away anytime soon, that's for sure.
So that's the plan going into this next cycle. Plus, I need to get back into my weigh loss routine. I've been sooooooooo lazy about it. Plus with my plantar fascitis and heel spur, I don't really feel like going to the gym. I haven't gone in over a month. It's killing me just thinking about it. I'm just wasting my money. Plus I'm paying for personal training and I haven't gone back to that either. Gosh, it makes me feel so overwhelmed. But I have noticed I have lost some weight. Maybe it's because DH and I aren't going out to eat as much.
In other news, I'm finding out more and more people are getting PG. It seems to come in waves. This is a really big wave. A tidal wave at that. Just found out my cousin is PG with her first. She's the baby of my generation on my dad's side. I'm really happy for her. She's 28 and been with her guy for like 13 or 14 years. That's as much as I know. Plus two of my very close friends are PG. One with her first, and I'm very happy for them too. I know of a few other ladies as well. Then on top of that, celebrities my age are getting KU and then it's all over the tabloids in your face. It gets to me sometimes. I'm not a religious person so it's hard to stay optimistic sometimes. It's times like these I wish I could see the future... just to see our children. I think if I could get a glimpse into the future and see our family "complete" it would give me a renewed sense of hope. If these were our biological children, I would know eventually we would have a successful cycle and it would keep me that much more motivated. If they were adopted, I'd be just as happy but then I'd want to start the adoption process already. Like, why waste my time on TTC? We watched a movie this week called 127 Hours (based on a true story) about a canyonierre (sp?) who falls into a canyon and gets stuck after a rock gets lodged and pins his hand to the side of the canyon. In the end, he ends up cutting off his own arm to save his life after being trapped for 127 hours (5ish days). He has a vision/dilusion during one of his last days trapped of a little boy, his future child, who helps him to stay alive and not give up hope. At the end of the movie during the credits we find out that he marries and they end up having a son. Good movie. I definately recommend. Now I know I am not in a life or death situation like Aron (the character in the movie), and I know the human psyche will do wonders when put in unfortunate situations like his. But a part of me, after 2+ years of TTC, wishes for an epiphany of some sort. Just to know I'm on the right path. Is that too much to ask? Maybe it is. But again these are just the ramblings of a woman living with IF.
I have set a daily alarm for 6:30 am. I'm going to be adament about taking my temps at the same time each day. My charts have recently been zig-zaggy, and I think alot has to do with my waking times. I don't have a steady schedule so some days I sleep in and others I have to wake up early to go to work. So it kinda makes my charts look wonky (plus the meds aren't helping either). So now that I'm off the meds and I'll be temping at the same time each morning, I'm hoping my chart will look better. But funny that today I had a temp spike. I'm continuing my regular meds as prescribed by my doc. That includes levoxyl every morning, metformin every other day, and dostinex once a week. If I ovulate this cycle, I will also take the progesterone two days after O, because I feel like that's helping to regulate my cycle. I am going to try and monitor my CM everyday (I say try because I keep forgetting to check it in past cycles) and will more than likely start using OPKs starting on CD 7 since FF seems to think that's when my predicted O days are. And then we will have to plan TI accordingly. So timing and scheduling will still be very important this cycle. That won't be going away anytime soon, that's for sure.
So that's the plan going into this next cycle. Plus, I need to get back into my weigh loss routine. I've been sooooooooo lazy about it. Plus with my plantar fascitis and heel spur, I don't really feel like going to the gym. I haven't gone in over a month. It's killing me just thinking about it. I'm just wasting my money. Plus I'm paying for personal training and I haven't gone back to that either. Gosh, it makes me feel so overwhelmed. But I have noticed I have lost some weight. Maybe it's because DH and I aren't going out to eat as much.
In other news, I'm finding out more and more people are getting PG. It seems to come in waves. This is a really big wave. A tidal wave at that. Just found out my cousin is PG with her first. She's the baby of my generation on my dad's side. I'm really happy for her. She's 28 and been with her guy for like 13 or 14 years. That's as much as I know. Plus two of my very close friends are PG. One with her first, and I'm very happy for them too. I know of a few other ladies as well. Then on top of that, celebrities my age are getting KU and then it's all over the tabloids in your face. It gets to me sometimes. I'm not a religious person so it's hard to stay optimistic sometimes. It's times like these I wish I could see the future... just to see our children. I think if I could get a glimpse into the future and see our family "complete" it would give me a renewed sense of hope. If these were our biological children, I would know eventually we would have a successful cycle and it would keep me that much more motivated. If they were adopted, I'd be just as happy but then I'd want to start the adoption process already. Like, why waste my time on TTC? We watched a movie this week called 127 Hours (based on a true story) about a canyonierre (sp?) who falls into a canyon and gets stuck after a rock gets lodged and pins his hand to the side of the canyon. In the end, he ends up cutting off his own arm to save his life after being trapped for 127 hours (5ish days). He has a vision/dilusion during one of his last days trapped of a little boy, his future child, who helps him to stay alive and not give up hope. At the end of the movie during the credits we find out that he marries and they end up having a son. Good movie. I definately recommend. Now I know I am not in a life or death situation like Aron (the character in the movie), and I know the human psyche will do wonders when put in unfortunate situations like his. But a part of me, after 2+ years of TTC, wishes for an epiphany of some sort. Just to know I'm on the right path. Is that too much to ask? Maybe it is. But again these are just the ramblings of a woman living with IF.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Oh No....!
So I caved and tested yesterday. BFN :( Not surprising considering I only had a 35%chance of getting a BFP if I was KU. Only more reason for me to wait till Friday or Saturday.
Well, this evening while getting ready for bed, I noticed some spotting. My heart dropped, but I'm trying to stay positive. This doesn't mean for sure AF has come. I will have to wait to see what tomorrow brings. Hubby is trying to look on the bright side. He says at least it looks like my cycle is starting to regulate. He seems to think that this will help us conceive on our own. I really want to believe that. It's just so hard... So disappointing... I really thought this would be our cycle.
Well, this evening while getting ready for bed, I noticed some spotting. My heart dropped, but I'm trying to stay positive. This doesn't mean for sure AF has come. I will have to wait to see what tomorrow brings. Hubby is trying to look on the bright side. He says at least it looks like my cycle is starting to regulate. He seems to think that this will help us conceive on our own. I really want to believe that. It's just so hard... So disappointing... I really thought this would be our cycle.
Sunday, January 20, 2013
I've Been Nominated!
A fellow blogger, Risa, at Who Shot Down My Stork? nominated me for the Liebster award!!
How fun! I'm usually a lurker on other's blogs, so never really expected to get noticed! How exciting! Thanks, Risa! Hope this post can get you more readers.
This award is given to new or up-and coming-bloggers who have less than 200 followers. The award is then passed along to other bloggers in the same category to help spread the word and support one another. What a fun way to get to know other bloggers!
If you receive a nomination, there are a few rules to follow:
1) Each blogger nominated must post 11 things about themselves.
2) Then answer the 11 questions the tagger has asked.
3) Blogger must then create 11 questions of their own to ask the bloggers they decide to nominate.
4) They must choose 11 bloggers with less than 200 followers to nominate and link them on their blog post.
5) Bloggers must be notified of their award!
6) No tag backs!
Okay, 11 things about me:
1. DH and I met on MySpace (back before Facebook became popular).
2. I listen to Britney Spears... One of my guilty pleasures.
3. I don't drink carbonated beverages. Never liked ever since I was a kid.
4. I'm allergic to cats.
5. I have a fear of drowning. Seriously, I can't even take a bubble bath w/o having a panic attack.
6. Pizza and desserts are my weaknesses.
7. I have 3 dogs, and would probably have more if DH would allow me to.
8. I'm a Ford girl.
9. I'm a Windows girl (as opposed to Mac).
10. I "shock" people for a living.
11. I enjoy watching UFC (thanks to my hubby).
Here are the questions for me from Risa:
1. What is your favorite holiday? Halloween.
2. Are you a morning person or night owl? Definately a night owl.
3. What was the greatest moment of your life? Marrying DH.
4. Why do you blog? To express myself and to chronicle my journey.
5. What is your favorite waste of time? Watching my shows on the DVR and surfing the internet.
6. What is your favorite book or movie? This is a hard one. Movie: Either Disney's The Little Mermaid or Beauty and the Beast.
7. When was the last time you cried? I can't remember, honestly. But it was probably about IF. Maybe 2 weeks ago?
8. What causes are you passionate about? Animal rescue.
9. What did you want to be when you grew up? A teacher or a baby doctor (Neonatalogist).
10. Beer, wine, or hard liqueur? Hard liqour... love me a margarita or anything with vodka.
11. What was the most important lesson you have learned in life? Karma is for real. You get out of life what you put in.
Here are the 11 questions for my nominees:
1. Are you a dog or a cat person (or neither)?
2. What is your New Year's resolution?
3. What are 3 items you can't live without?
4. If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?
5. What is a pet peeve of yours?
6. What Disney character can you most relate to?
7. If you had to do karaoke, what song would you sing?
8. What is one of your guilty pleasures?
9. iPhone, Android, or Windows phone?
10. What was your favorite Halloween costume?
11. What is your earliest childhood memory?
And my nominees for the Liebster are.....
Aqua intuitiveblue.net
Runnin Red' The Harder to Get, the Better to Have
MJ Baseball, Beagles, Beer and Babies?
Sarah 1 Niece, 2 Nephews No Babies to Call My Own
Steffie This Chapter
Jen It's totally fine...
Torrie Trying to Conceive with PCOS
Heather The Unicorn and Me
Raiana First Comes Love, Then Comes Marriage...
Heather Inconceivable!
Rebecca Going thru infertility and life's adventures
This award is given to new or up-and coming-bloggers who have less than 200 followers. The award is then passed along to other bloggers in the same category to help spread the word and support one another. What a fun way to get to know other bloggers!
If you receive a nomination, there are a few rules to follow:
1) Each blogger nominated must post 11 things about themselves.
2) Then answer the 11 questions the tagger has asked.
3) Blogger must then create 11 questions of their own to ask the bloggers they decide to nominate.
4) They must choose 11 bloggers with less than 200 followers to nominate and link them on their blog post.
5) Bloggers must be notified of their award!
6) No tag backs!
Okay, 11 things about me:
1. DH and I met on MySpace (back before Facebook became popular).
2. I listen to Britney Spears... One of my guilty pleasures.
3. I don't drink carbonated beverages. Never liked ever since I was a kid.
4. I'm allergic to cats.
5. I have a fear of drowning. Seriously, I can't even take a bubble bath w/o having a panic attack.
6. Pizza and desserts are my weaknesses.
7. I have 3 dogs, and would probably have more if DH would allow me to.
8. I'm a Ford girl.
9. I'm a Windows girl (as opposed to Mac).
10. I "shock" people for a living.
11. I enjoy watching UFC (thanks to my hubby).
Here are the questions for me from Risa:
1. What is your favorite holiday? Halloween.
2. Are you a morning person or night owl? Definately a night owl.
3. What was the greatest moment of your life? Marrying DH.
4. Why do you blog? To express myself and to chronicle my journey.
5. What is your favorite waste of time? Watching my shows on the DVR and surfing the internet.
6. What is your favorite book or movie? This is a hard one. Movie: Either Disney's The Little Mermaid or Beauty and the Beast.
7. When was the last time you cried? I can't remember, honestly. But it was probably about IF. Maybe 2 weeks ago?
8. What causes are you passionate about? Animal rescue.
9. What did you want to be when you grew up? A teacher or a baby doctor (Neonatalogist).
10. Beer, wine, or hard liqueur? Hard liqour... love me a margarita or anything with vodka.
11. What was the most important lesson you have learned in life? Karma is for real. You get out of life what you put in.
Here are the 11 questions for my nominees:
1. Are you a dog or a cat person (or neither)?
2. What is your New Year's resolution?
3. What are 3 items you can't live without?
4. If you could travel anywhere in the world, where would you go?
5. What is a pet peeve of yours?
6. What Disney character can you most relate to?
7. If you had to do karaoke, what song would you sing?
8. What is one of your guilty pleasures?
9. iPhone, Android, or Windows phone?
10. What was your favorite Halloween costume?
11. What is your earliest childhood memory?
And my nominees for the Liebster are.....
Aqua intuitiveblue.net
Runnin Red' The Harder to Get, the Better to Have
MJ Baseball, Beagles, Beer and Babies?
Sarah 1 Niece, 2 Nephews No Babies to Call My Own
Steffie This Chapter
Jen It's totally fine...
Torrie Trying to Conceive with PCOS
Heather The Unicorn and Me
Raiana First Comes Love, Then Comes Marriage...
Heather Inconceivable!
Rebecca Going thru infertility and life's adventures
Thursday, January 17, 2013
CD 21 & Hubby Love
Well it seems as if the trigger is finally coming out of my system... I did an OPK yesterday and today and they were both negative. I've been doing pretty good lately, although these past two days I've been dealing with allergies and loose stools (TMI, sorry). I'm not reading too much into that, however. I've also been surprisingly calm these last few days, like no worries. What a nice change of pace. :) I woke up from a late nap a few hours ago, and I feel a little feverish, though my temp is normal. I hope I'm not coming down with anything. I made a promise to myself not to consume any alcohol while in this 2WW (if I can even call it that, since my chart still has no spike), but funny how I've been craving coffee recently. I've had it pretty much every day this week. I told hubby how ironic that I've sworn off alcohol, yet I'm still drinking coffee. I'm going to try and stop that too. (But this cold weather makes me want to enjoy a nice hot cup.) I haven't had any today, YAY! I am excited that next week I will be able to test. I am counting down the days.
In other news, DH has been seriously stressing about our future. I have to admit, we have had to deal with alot on our plate recently. But it's weird because it's usually me that's stressed out and here I am trying to reassure hubby that all is going to be okay. He started his spring semester in school this week and he's taking three classes plus working full time. Also, I still haven't found steady work. I mean, I've picked up two extra days of PT work, but we are still trying to recover, financially, from my recent lay-off. And now, we just found out that our house needs a little work on it too. Plus on top of everything we are dealing with IF. After his first two days of class, he came home pretty overwhelmed with all the expectations of his courses. I told him that now that I have more time on my hands I can help him out. After all, I've been in school pretty much most of my life, so I know what and what not to do. I don't like seeing him stressed like this, especially when I'm trying to be positive and optimistic about this cycle. But I think with the pressure of perhaps bringing a baby into the picture he feels very overwhelmed. I understand it's a lot to deal with at one time, but like I explained to hubby, we just need to take one thing at a time. I used a metaphor with him last night when trying to explain things. I said...
It's like putting mayo in your sandwich... If you scoop a spoonful of mayo and plop it on a slice of bread, you're not expected to eat it like that. Yes, of course it seems like alot... but that's if your planning on biting into it like that. And who would do that, certainly not you and me. You have to spread it out the bread slice. Right? That way what seemed like alot at first is now spread out evenly in each bite. I told him that's how we have to approach our issues right now. Yes, we've had a lot to deal with in these past few weeks, but you'd be insane to try and tackle it all at once. You need to deal with these things slowly and with care, making sure to spread it out over time. Yes, I'm not making nearly as much money as I was with my FT job, but I'm still working... I'm still bringing in money. I've got three jobs. I work 3 days a week and I just found out I may be picking up another job (more about that later). Yes, your classes may seem hard at first, but remember, you have your weekends free to study. Plus I will help you out. I'm a pro at these classes. They are what I live through everyday (he's taking Human Anatomy & Physiology and Medical Terminology), I can help you with studying. I can make it seem less difficult. Work, unfortunately can't change. Yes, they are stressing you out over there. But you are only human, you can't be expected to do EVERYTHING. I know you usually try to and that's what makes you such a good, hard working man. But remember, you are not dedicated to this place and you may be soon leaving in a few months if our plans stay on track. Just grin and bear it. Sometimes that's all you can do. The house needs a little work, yes, but we can tackle that gradually. It doesn't all need to be fixed in one day. Slow and steady wins the race. And finally IF... who knows if this cycle will be successful. Yes, this is the farthest we've come and yes, there is chance this may finally be the start of a new chapter. But again it's one day at a time. Babies early on don't require alot of spending. Thank goodness we've decided to cloth diaper and we've already purchased a bassinett. I'm an avid supporter of breastfeeding for the first year, and hopefully I won't have any problems with it. That also will save us money. We both have very supportive families and if it ever comes down to it, I'm sure they can lend a helping hand if need be. I somehow have this feeling that things will turn out okay. I think that's why I've been so calm lately. Maybe it's pregnancy hormones, who knows! (Wishful thinking) But we are here and surviving just fine. Carpe diem. Tomorrow will bring different opportunities, so you just have to take it one day at a time. Times like this will only strengthen our bond and bring us closer together. I love you forever and always.
In other news, DH has been seriously stressing about our future. I have to admit, we have had to deal with alot on our plate recently. But it's weird because it's usually me that's stressed out and here I am trying to reassure hubby that all is going to be okay. He started his spring semester in school this week and he's taking three classes plus working full time. Also, I still haven't found steady work. I mean, I've picked up two extra days of PT work, but we are still trying to recover, financially, from my recent lay-off. And now, we just found out that our house needs a little work on it too. Plus on top of everything we are dealing with IF. After his first two days of class, he came home pretty overwhelmed with all the expectations of his courses. I told him that now that I have more time on my hands I can help him out. After all, I've been in school pretty much most of my life, so I know what and what not to do. I don't like seeing him stressed like this, especially when I'm trying to be positive and optimistic about this cycle. But I think with the pressure of perhaps bringing a baby into the picture he feels very overwhelmed. I understand it's a lot to deal with at one time, but like I explained to hubby, we just need to take one thing at a time. I used a metaphor with him last night when trying to explain things. I said...
It's like putting mayo in your sandwich... If you scoop a spoonful of mayo and plop it on a slice of bread, you're not expected to eat it like that. Yes, of course it seems like alot... but that's if your planning on biting into it like that. And who would do that, certainly not you and me. You have to spread it out the bread slice. Right? That way what seemed like alot at first is now spread out evenly in each bite. I told him that's how we have to approach our issues right now. Yes, we've had a lot to deal with in these past few weeks, but you'd be insane to try and tackle it all at once. You need to deal with these things slowly and with care, making sure to spread it out over time. Yes, I'm not making nearly as much money as I was with my FT job, but I'm still working... I'm still bringing in money. I've got three jobs. I work 3 days a week and I just found out I may be picking up another job (more about that later). Yes, your classes may seem hard at first, but remember, you have your weekends free to study. Plus I will help you out. I'm a pro at these classes. They are what I live through everyday (he's taking Human Anatomy & Physiology and Medical Terminology), I can help you with studying. I can make it seem less difficult. Work, unfortunately can't change. Yes, they are stressing you out over there. But you are only human, you can't be expected to do EVERYTHING. I know you usually try to and that's what makes you such a good, hard working man. But remember, you are not dedicated to this place and you may be soon leaving in a few months if our plans stay on track. Just grin and bear it. Sometimes that's all you can do. The house needs a little work, yes, but we can tackle that gradually. It doesn't all need to be fixed in one day. Slow and steady wins the race. And finally IF... who knows if this cycle will be successful. Yes, this is the farthest we've come and yes, there is chance this may finally be the start of a new chapter. But again it's one day at a time. Babies early on don't require alot of spending. Thank goodness we've decided to cloth diaper and we've already purchased a bassinett. I'm an avid supporter of breastfeeding for the first year, and hopefully I won't have any problems with it. That also will save us money. We both have very supportive families and if it ever comes down to it, I'm sure they can lend a helping hand if need be. I somehow have this feeling that things will turn out okay. I think that's why I've been so calm lately. Maybe it's pregnancy hormones, who knows! (Wishful thinking) But we are here and surviving just fine. Carpe diem. Tomorrow will bring different opportunities, so you just have to take it one day at a time. Times like this will only strengthen our bond and bring us closer together. I love you forever and always.
Monday, January 14, 2013
Did I O?
So the trigger is supposed to make me ovulate, right? Well my temps show no sign of it yet. It's making me a little nuts. I'm trying not to put too much thought into it. My temperatures have pretty much stayed consistently flat since the trigger, and I'm worried because I haven't seen the spike as of today. It's been 3 days since my trigger, and the trigger usually works within 36 hours from what I've read. I really haven't read anything online of someone NOT ovulating with a trigger... considering it's supposed to MAKE you ovulate. The HCG is still showing up on my OPKs, so I know it's definitely still in my system. I'm just hoping the meds are what's affecting my temps. We BDed over the weekend and now I'm wondering if we should continue until I see the spike.
My Ovulation Chart
That's what's going on in my head today. No new symptoms... same old, same old. Food for thought...
My Ovulation Chart
That's what's going on in my head today. No new symptoms... same old, same old. Food for thought...
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I'm Officially Fertile!
Let the BD commence! DH and I are so stoked to see where this month takes us. OPK was positive last night, but of course this is due to the trigger. That was the first time I got two definate lines. It was so amazing to see, I've never seen the test line so dark. LOL. EWCM is still present and I even showed it to DH, which may have been TMI, but he needs to know what's going on in my body. Now that I know I have 2 follies, it makes this even more exciting!
I was on the PAIF boards last night, and I saw one of the gals is pregnant with twins after going through her second medicated cycle. Her BFP resulted from Clomid + Trigger + TI. The same protocol we're on now. That made my night :) To make it even better, I found out she was team purple... pink + blue = purple. Get it? I told DH about it and that made him super happy. So our TI schedule is as follow: 24, 32 and 38 hrs after injection. Yep, hubby will be wore out. LOL.
I did notice some side effect symptoms from the trigger last night. Weird sensations in my pelvic area and a little pain (ovulation pain?). I was reading that sometimes women experience pregnancy-like symptoms after getting the trigger, so maybe that was what I was feeling. BBTs are still low, but I'm hoping for a spike and high temps afterwards ;) Until then, I will begin the prometrium on Monday, and can't test until the 26th.
That's all for today. I'm wearing my lucky socks again. Stick babies, stick.
I was on the PAIF boards last night, and I saw one of the gals is pregnant with twins after going through her second medicated cycle. Her BFP resulted from Clomid + Trigger + TI. The same protocol we're on now. That made my night :) To make it even better, I found out she was team purple... pink + blue = purple. Get it? I told DH about it and that made him super happy. So our TI schedule is as follow: 24, 32 and 38 hrs after injection. Yep, hubby will be wore out. LOL.
I did notice some side effect symptoms from the trigger last night. Weird sensations in my pelvic area and a little pain (ovulation pain?). I was reading that sometimes women experience pregnancy-like symptoms after getting the trigger, so maybe that was what I was feeling. BBTs are still low, but I'm hoping for a spike and high temps afterwards ;) Until then, I will begin the prometrium on Monday, and can't test until the 26th.
That's all for today. I'm wearing my lucky socks again. Stick babies, stick.
Friday, January 11, 2013
Update - CD 15
2:30 pm
So here I am sitting in the waiting room, waiting on them to call me in for the u/s. DH is here with me playing games on his phone or something like that. I'm nervous and my plantar fascitis is giving me problems today. I hope this right now is the pit of my day.
Last night and this morning I have had EWCM. So now I have my hopes up. Still no positive OPK, but this afternoon's test was the darkest I've seen it. Today is CD 15 and fifteen is my lucky number. I'm wearing "lucky" socks and I feel good. Are my hopes too high? I hope not.
2:40pm
There's another pt here, sitting next to me, with a newborn in a stroller. Stay calm, Mely. I guess that's the price u pay coming to an OB/Gyn. What's taking so long? My appt was at 2pm.
3:00 pm
Just got done with u/s. Waiting on doc to follow-up. DH was there to hold my hand. Measurements looked good, but then again I may be mistaken like last time. She measured my endometrium, my uterus, my ovaries and my follicles. "Numbers look promising don't they?" I ask DH. He tells me he didn't know what the heck he was even looking at. LOL. I'm hoping for 2 good follies, but one would do just fine.
3:30 pm
Just got called in for my appt with doc. Waiting in exam room. Will post a quick video in a bit. FX!
4:00 pm
Still waiting on doc..... I'm going stir crazy and I'm starving :(
4:30 pm
It's a go! Doc just walked in not even spending FIVE minutes with us. "We're gonna go ahead and release it. Then u and ur husband are going to do ur business tomorrow night and the following night. Ur gonna wear him out. But he's a lucky man to be married to such a beautiful woman." Then walks out. No other info.
4:35 pm
Injection done :) In my right hip. It stings a little. They want me to wait 10 min more to make sure I don't have an allergic reaction to the meds. I ask nurse if I can get a little more information on my measurments so that I can journal about it. She says the other nurse will come in a bit to answer my questions.
Okay, so I guess they were using that to bill when I had insurance. Either way, hubby and I are on cloud 9! We can't wait to see what this year will bring us. And to think, my birthday is coming up in a few weeks. Hopefully I will have even better things to celebrate. BFP, BFP, BFP!!! Go Team ***! (Thanks L for helping me to coin the phrase) :)
So here I am sitting in the waiting room, waiting on them to call me in for the u/s. DH is here with me playing games on his phone or something like that. I'm nervous and my plantar fascitis is giving me problems today. I hope this right now is the pit of my day.
Last night and this morning I have had EWCM. So now I have my hopes up. Still no positive OPK, but this afternoon's test was the darkest I've seen it. Today is CD 15 and fifteen is my lucky number. I'm wearing "lucky" socks and I feel good. Are my hopes too high? I hope not.
2:40pm
There's another pt here, sitting next to me, with a newborn in a stroller. Stay calm, Mely. I guess that's the price u pay coming to an OB/Gyn. What's taking so long? My appt was at 2pm.
3:00 pm
Just got done with u/s. Waiting on doc to follow-up. DH was there to hold my hand. Measurements looked good, but then again I may be mistaken like last time. She measured my endometrium, my uterus, my ovaries and my follicles. "Numbers look promising don't they?" I ask DH. He tells me he didn't know what the heck he was even looking at. LOL. I'm hoping for 2 good follies, but one would do just fine.
3:30 pm
Just got called in for my appt with doc. Waiting in exam room. Will post a quick video in a bit. FX!
(sorry video is sideways)
4:00 pm
Still waiting on doc..... I'm going stir crazy and I'm starving :(
4:30 pm
It's a go! Doc just walked in not even spending FIVE minutes with us. "We're gonna go ahead and release it. Then u and ur husband are going to do ur business tomorrow night and the following night. Ur gonna wear him out. But he's a lucky man to be married to such a beautiful woman." Then walks out. No other info.
4:35 pm
Injection done :) In my right hip. It stings a little. They want me to wait 10 min more to make sure I don't have an allergic reaction to the meds. I ask nurse if I can get a little more information on my measurments so that I can journal about it. She says the other nurse will come in a bit to answer my questions.
4:55 pm
Doc comes in instead. I ask him about my measurments. He says "2". Umm, hello? Two what? Turns out I actually have 2 mature follicles! They both measure 2 cm (20 mm) which is awesome! One on the left AND one on the right! My endometrium lining is 8 mm, also great! "What about the prometrium? When do I start taking that?" I ask him. "Monday" he says. Again I ask him about TI. Yes, tomorrow and the day after. Don't do anything tonight. "Put it in the bank. Save it for tomorrow," he says. That was pretty much all for our visit today. As I was checking out, I saw my superbill had ICD 9 code 626.4, which I looked up.
2012 ICD-9-CM Diagnosis Code 626.4
Irregular menstrual cycle
- Deviations from the normal process; e.g. delayed, difficult, profuse, scanty, unusual bleeding, etc.
- Short description: Irregular menstruation.
Okay, so I guess they were using that to bill when I had insurance. Either way, hubby and I are on cloud 9! We can't wait to see what this year will bring us. And to think, my birthday is coming up in a few weeks. Hopefully I will have even better things to celebrate. BFP, BFP, BFP!!! Go Team ***! (Thanks L for helping me to coin the phrase) :)
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Work Update and FX for Tomorrow
I know I said I wouldn't update until Friday, but alas, here I am. I had a late lunch with a good friend of mine who is preggers and was updating her on all that's been going on these past few weeks. Thinking about it, made me kind of want to post my thoughts about today and my anticipation of tomorrow's appt. I got a phone call a couple of hours ago confirming my appt tomorrow. I really hadn't thought about it all day (until I happened to mention it to my friend earlier) and that is mainly due to the fact that I started my first day at my new job today.
I kind of started off on the wrong foot considering I was 20 minutes late for work... my first day... geeze what an impression that makes. And I know there's really no good excuse when you're trying to make a good impression, but I honestly underestimated traffic. Then there was this huge traffic jam on one of the main roads leading out of my subdivision. And I was so pissed sitting there, twiddling my thumbs, moving 5 feet every 5 minutes. After nearly 20 minutes sitting there hardly moving, I decided to veer off the main road and drive further out of the area just so I could hop on the tollway hoping the traffic was a little lighter. Well, the 10 minute drive to get to the damn tollway didn't help and just set me further back from the city, which in turn made me drive farther.... ughhh! Then there was traffic on the tollway to top it off. I tell ya, when it rain, it pours. Needless to say, as soon as I got a chance (waiting at a red light), I texted my boss and told him I was gonna be late and apologized in advanced. I was not a happy camper :( Luckily, the patient ended up cancelling their appt so I didn't have them waiting on me when I arrived at the office. But still... great 1st impression I made on the boss. Other than that little mess this morning, the rest of the day at the office pretty much ran smoothly. We had a little hiccup with our medical equipment, but were able to work through it. I need to mention this is a brand new medical office that just opened up a month ago, so they are still trying to work out the kinks. Anyways, I'm still trying to pick up some extra work and so I had a meeting scheduled with one of my previous employer's after finishing today's clinic. I knew she would welcome me back, but she made it pretty clear that she did not enjoy my little hiatuses of going back and forth working for her (I have quit there twice before due to a better job opportunities). Third time's a charm, eh? I wish I could make her see that. LOL... But either way I'm done with that other type of work. Though they pay really well and have good benefits, it is quite unstable, and I cannot afford to take another work risk. I need a steadier job and something that will work for me long-term especially when LO comes. I had to make her understand that and basically asked for my old job back (a little short of groveling, I might add). We ended up agreeing on a one-year contract to put her mind to ease so that she knows I'm serious. I don't like contracts but what can I do? I need my job back. So with that, I now have 3 jobs = 3 days a week. I start next week.
On to other thoughts... my 2nd follicle search is scheduled for tomorrow and I'm getting nervous. I just took an OPK and it was negative. I have a bit of watery CM but I'm not trying to read much into it. BBTs are still a little wonky and I haven't seen a definate O yet. I've been massaging and touching my left side hoping to bring positive energy to Lefty, though I don't know how much it will help. This may be our last chance for a medicated cycle this season due to our financial situation and it makes me a little sad. Of course we are not giving up TTC. We are just going back to doing it the "old-fashioned" way, so that means I will definately need to start on my WL. Perhaps in the summer, we can reasess our situation, see where we are at in terms of finances, school, work, weight loss and then maybe pay a visit to the doctor again. I'm seriously considering transferring to an RE (I know some may think I should've done this long, long ago but I had faith in my OB/GYN). I don't know if that would cost more considering I may be doing more monitoring. I am still hanging on to the script that Trudy wrote for me yesterday. In case this cycle was unsuccessful, she wrote me one for 100mg Clomid. I don't know if I will fill it, but will keep it tucked safely anyway. I feel sad ending today's entry on this note, but it is what it is. I'm just keeping my FX that cycle #2 is our cycle. Pretty please, with a cherry on top? ;)
I kind of started off on the wrong foot considering I was 20 minutes late for work... my first day... geeze what an impression that makes. And I know there's really no good excuse when you're trying to make a good impression, but I honestly underestimated traffic. Then there was this huge traffic jam on one of the main roads leading out of my subdivision. And I was so pissed sitting there, twiddling my thumbs, moving 5 feet every 5 minutes. After nearly 20 minutes sitting there hardly moving, I decided to veer off the main road and drive further out of the area just so I could hop on the tollway hoping the traffic was a little lighter. Well, the 10 minute drive to get to the damn tollway didn't help and just set me further back from the city, which in turn made me drive farther.... ughhh! Then there was traffic on the tollway to top it off. I tell ya, when it rain, it pours. Needless to say, as soon as I got a chance (waiting at a red light), I texted my boss and told him I was gonna be late and apologized in advanced. I was not a happy camper :( Luckily, the patient ended up cancelling their appt so I didn't have them waiting on me when I arrived at the office. But still... great 1st impression I made on the boss. Other than that little mess this morning, the rest of the day at the office pretty much ran smoothly. We had a little hiccup with our medical equipment, but were able to work through it. I need to mention this is a brand new medical office that just opened up a month ago, so they are still trying to work out the kinks. Anyways, I'm still trying to pick up some extra work and so I had a meeting scheduled with one of my previous employer's after finishing today's clinic. I knew she would welcome me back, but she made it pretty clear that she did not enjoy my little hiatuses of going back and forth working for her (I have quit there twice before due to a better job opportunities). Third time's a charm, eh? I wish I could make her see that. LOL... But either way I'm done with that other type of work. Though they pay really well and have good benefits, it is quite unstable, and I cannot afford to take another work risk. I need a steadier job and something that will work for me long-term especially when LO comes. I had to make her understand that and basically asked for my old job back (a little short of groveling, I might add). We ended up agreeing on a one-year contract to put her mind to ease so that she knows I'm serious. I don't like contracts but what can I do? I need my job back. So with that, I now have 3 jobs = 3 days a week. I start next week.
On to other thoughts... my 2nd follicle search is scheduled for tomorrow and I'm getting nervous. I just took an OPK and it was negative. I have a bit of watery CM but I'm not trying to read much into it. BBTs are still a little wonky and I haven't seen a definate O yet. I've been massaging and touching my left side hoping to bring positive energy to Lefty, though I don't know how much it will help. This may be our last chance for a medicated cycle this season due to our financial situation and it makes me a little sad. Of course we are not giving up TTC. We are just going back to doing it the "old-fashioned" way, so that means I will definately need to start on my WL. Perhaps in the summer, we can reasess our situation, see where we are at in terms of finances, school, work, weight loss and then maybe pay a visit to the doctor again. I'm seriously considering transferring to an RE (I know some may think I should've done this long, long ago but I had faith in my OB/GYN). I don't know if that would cost more considering I may be doing more monitoring. I am still hanging on to the script that Trudy wrote for me yesterday. In case this cycle was unsuccessful, she wrote me one for 100mg Clomid. I don't know if I will fill it, but will keep it tucked safely anyway. I feel sad ending today's entry on this note, but it is what it is. I'm just keeping my FX that cycle #2 is our cycle. Pretty please, with a cherry on top? ;)
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Update Cycle #2
Today is CD13 and I just had a date with the vag cam. DH was with me today, but the procedure was still uncomfortable. Hubby is coming down with a cold of some sort, but I hope this doesn't inhibit our TI. So I got the scan, then we had to wait nearly 45 min for my appt with Trudy. She finally came to get us and tell us the news. Basically, I don't have any mature follicles as of yet, but one has the potential to grow in the next couple of days. On my right ovary, I only have one little bitty tiny follicle that measured 5mm. Too small to do anything for this cycle. On the left ovary, however, I have one that measured 14mm and that's the one she says can possibly grow bigger in the next few days. So she wants me to schedule another u/s for Friday, which is in 2 days, to see if it has grown any bigger. That will determine whether we trigger or wait until the next cycle. I'm keeping my fingers and toes tightly crossed that it's the first. This is the closest I've come so far. We still discussed what our next step will be should I not get my BFP this cycle :( I don't really want to think about it though. Essentially, she will increase the Clomid to 100mg for five days and run the follicle search again. I don't want to even think about moving forward with a 3rd cycle, because 1: that's already halfway to being done with using Clomid (it really only works within the first 6 cycles), 2: that's more money coming out of our pockets (we decided not to go with COBRA and so we're paying cash for everything), 3: that's waiting one more month (given I get AF on time) again. So that is that. I scheduled my scan for Friday afternoon, but this time I'm going to follow-up with the doc instead. Hubby and I were talking about the appt afterwards and he's really hopeful this cycle. I guess I'm just trying to be a realist and maybe I've been on the boards too long, but 14mm doesn't seem like that big a deal to me. But I'm trying to stay optimistic. DH says he's going to refer to it as "Lefty" in hopes of bringing some positive vibes to the situation. If anything, he made me smile.
In other news, I start my new job tomorrow. I'm excited about that. Weather has been kinda crappy and I hate driving when it's ugly outside. This new job is on the other side of town and I'm not looking forward to the drive. That just means I'll have to leave extra early tomorrow morning. Also, one of my old employers called me today. She's having issues with the tech she has now and more than likely gonna let him go. Guess who's coming to the rescue? We haven't discussed employment details yet, but I'm pretty sure whatever happens, it'll be in my favor. This doctor and I have a very close comraderie and I'm sure she'll be happy to have me back on her staff. So that's three PT jobs total and I'm working on getting 2 more, so hopefully that will keep us pretty comfortable, financially, in the meantime. It's still not FT, but it's close and that's fine with me. That's all for now. I'll update on Friday.
In other news, I start my new job tomorrow. I'm excited about that. Weather has been kinda crappy and I hate driving when it's ugly outside. This new job is on the other side of town and I'm not looking forward to the drive. That just means I'll have to leave extra early tomorrow morning. Also, one of my old employers called me today. She's having issues with the tech she has now and more than likely gonna let him go. Guess who's coming to the rescue? We haven't discussed employment details yet, but I'm pretty sure whatever happens, it'll be in my favor. This doctor and I have a very close comraderie and I'm sure she'll be happy to have me back on her staff. So that's three PT jobs total and I'm working on getting 2 more, so hopefully that will keep us pretty comfortable, financially, in the meantime. It's still not FT, but it's close and that's fine with me. That's all for now. I'll update on Friday.
Monday, January 7, 2013
CD 11... Two Days til Monitoring
So today is CD 11 and I have yet to see a positive OPK. I forgot to do one yesterday, but either way, it was negative today. I did notice that my CM is getting better. I really haven't been checking it like I should. I keep forgetting. I checked it today because I've been noticing that I have evidence on my underwear, if you know what I mean. It was bordering between creamy (last night it was creamy) and watery. I put watery on FF and it automatically said that I ovulated today, even though I put a negative OPK. So maybe I should go back and change it to creamy. I dunno. I'll just leave it for now. We'll see what tomorrow brings.
I have two more days until my monitoring appt, and I'm getting nervous and excited at the same time. Nervous for the bad news, excited for the good. DH will be going with me this time, so hopefully he'll be bringing some of his lucky mojo with him. Also today, we begin TI. I still haven't been feeling too good since the job loss, but I hope things will change in the boudouir (sp?)
In other news, I got the job! It's only PT, but something is better than nothing. I start on Thursday, which is in three days. I told hubby, and he's happy. I also wrote an email to one of the companies that manufacture the medical equipment in my field of health care. They conduct learning workshops, and I basically wrote and asked them if I could be of any assistance to them during their workshops. Hoping this can jumpstart my educational/teaching opportunity. I sent them my CV and some studies I've done. I'm hoping I hear a positive response. I threw in some names of people I've met that I know are associated with them, so maybe that'll give me the boost that I need.
Other than that, no further updates. Haven't resumed my exercise regime like I planned. Perhaps tomorrow.
I have two more days until my monitoring appt, and I'm getting nervous and excited at the same time. Nervous for the bad news, excited for the good. DH will be going with me this time, so hopefully he'll be bringing some of his lucky mojo with him. Also today, we begin TI. I still haven't been feeling too good since the job loss, but I hope things will change in the boudouir (sp?)
In other news, I got the job! It's only PT, but something is better than nothing. I start on Thursday, which is in three days. I told hubby, and he's happy. I also wrote an email to one of the companies that manufacture the medical equipment in my field of health care. They conduct learning workshops, and I basically wrote and asked them if I could be of any assistance to them during their workshops. Hoping this can jumpstart my educational/teaching opportunity. I sent them my CV and some studies I've done. I'm hoping I hear a positive response. I threw in some names of people I've met that I know are associated with them, so maybe that'll give me the boost that I need.
Other than that, no further updates. Haven't resumed my exercise regime like I planned. Perhaps tomorrow.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Blessings in Disguise
So today was my meeting with a potential employer. We met over lunch. The meeting went really well and he was impressed with my work history and experience. The meeting lasted longer than we both expected, but in a good way :) He basically hired me on the spot, but needed to run things through with his accountant, doctor, and office manager. Company is pretty new to the area and staff is kinda small. He said work would only be part-time with FT potential in the future. I told him that was perfect, since right now I'm only looking for PT. We discussed networking together since we have a couple of the same connections. I walked out of our meeting feeling really good.
Since I was in the area, I decided to stop by one of the doc's office I worked at with my other company. They have half-days on Friday, so I caught them just in time as they were locking up. Doc wasn't aware the extent of the company issues, and I explained that alot of us were laid off. He and I had developed a good comraderie, so I was pretty open about it with him. I told him I'd keep in touch since I'm pretty sure he will still need some of the services I provide. Plus he is one of my personal medical providers so I'm sure, I'm gonna want to stay in contact. He and his staff were sad to see me go, but hopefully we can work something out. I gave them all hugs.
On my way to pick up a couple of movies for this weekend, I got a call from the office manager/co-executive of the potential employer from today. She was really nice and we hit it off immediately. She works in a different city, but works from her home doing insurance billing, scheduling appointments, and basically running the office with what she can. Turns out that she used to work for my old company as well and left them just a little over a month ago after deciding not to return from maternity leave. Now she's a SAHM and tries to work from her home as much as possible. We both knew about each other, but never met. Funny how things work out. So our phone conversation lasted over an hour and we spoke about a multitude of things. Like I said, we really took to each other. She too was impressed with my knowledge and expertise. She said I'd make an excellent addition to the company. I also discovered that she is on the comittee that runs the board exams and education for my field of work. I haven't been very active with that society since they collect annual dues and plus I didn't have alot of time to dedicate to it. However, I thought that with her connection, it would be an excellent opportunity for me to jump into the educational aspect of what I do. Already, I will be meeting with the program director at one of the colleges that offers degree programs in my field. So with this new connection, I am thinking of doing some teaching work on the side (and also try to put in to work as a board examiner) as well as get clinical experience with the new job. I think it would offer the perfect balance. It still doesn't help the issue of getting FT benefits like medical insurance. We still have a few months to figure it out and hopefully we can work out something to get on DH's company's insurance. We'll see. I'm not worried about it at the moment. So I'm super excited to start this new venture and I'm on cloud 9 right about now.
Finally, I called my doc's office to inquire about the self pay services since I still plan on going next Wed for my monitoring. I don't know why I thought that it would be hugely expensive, and I was waiting for the blow. As it turns out, they provide a 20% discount for office visits for cash paying patients! So that's really good. Plus I would get $100 off the u/s cost. She quoted me $120 for the office visit and $100 for the u/s, so I'd be out of pocket $220 for that day. Not bad, I can deal with that. So again I'm super excited and optimistic. Please don't let me down follies. That's all I need, another let down to add to my crappy holiday news. Keeping FX! Will update soon.
Look what came in the mail the other day. 50 pk OPK and 3pk digital HPTs. Yay for TTC! :p lol
Since I was in the area, I decided to stop by one of the doc's office I worked at with my other company. They have half-days on Friday, so I caught them just in time as they were locking up. Doc wasn't aware the extent of the company issues, and I explained that alot of us were laid off. He and I had developed a good comraderie, so I was pretty open about it with him. I told him I'd keep in touch since I'm pretty sure he will still need some of the services I provide. Plus he is one of my personal medical providers so I'm sure, I'm gonna want to stay in contact. He and his staff were sad to see me go, but hopefully we can work something out. I gave them all hugs.
On my way to pick up a couple of movies for this weekend, I got a call from the office manager/co-executive of the potential employer from today. She was really nice and we hit it off immediately. She works in a different city, but works from her home doing insurance billing, scheduling appointments, and basically running the office with what she can. Turns out that she used to work for my old company as well and left them just a little over a month ago after deciding not to return from maternity leave. Now she's a SAHM and tries to work from her home as much as possible. We both knew about each other, but never met. Funny how things work out. So our phone conversation lasted over an hour and we spoke about a multitude of things. Like I said, we really took to each other. She too was impressed with my knowledge and expertise. She said I'd make an excellent addition to the company. I also discovered that she is on the comittee that runs the board exams and education for my field of work. I haven't been very active with that society since they collect annual dues and plus I didn't have alot of time to dedicate to it. However, I thought that with her connection, it would be an excellent opportunity for me to jump into the educational aspect of what I do. Already, I will be meeting with the program director at one of the colleges that offers degree programs in my field. So with this new connection, I am thinking of doing some teaching work on the side (and also try to put in to work as a board examiner) as well as get clinical experience with the new job. I think it would offer the perfect balance. It still doesn't help the issue of getting FT benefits like medical insurance. We still have a few months to figure it out and hopefully we can work out something to get on DH's company's insurance. We'll see. I'm not worried about it at the moment. So I'm super excited to start this new venture and I'm on cloud 9 right about now.
Finally, I called my doc's office to inquire about the self pay services since I still plan on going next Wed for my monitoring. I don't know why I thought that it would be hugely expensive, and I was waiting for the blow. As it turns out, they provide a 20% discount for office visits for cash paying patients! So that's really good. Plus I would get $100 off the u/s cost. She quoted me $120 for the office visit and $100 for the u/s, so I'd be out of pocket $220 for that day. Not bad, I can deal with that. So again I'm super excited and optimistic. Please don't let me down follies. That's all I need, another let down to add to my crappy holiday news. Keeping FX! Will update soon.
Look what came in the mail the other day. 50 pk OPK and 3pk digital HPTs. Yay for TTC! :p lol
Thursday, January 3, 2013
CD 7 and Pic Share
Well today is CD7 and I just took my last dose of Clomid for this cycle. Now we wait and see what follies will brew. The Crazies have simmered down some and I feel a little more myself. Still no job, but it's only been a week. I have a meeting with a potential employer tomorrow, so I will update on that later. I feel pretty decent, considering I've been laid off. I mean, I still have my 5 hours a week Saturday job and hopefully soon, the unemployment benefits will kick in. I'm remaining pretty optimistic that I will find something soon. Also called one of the community colleges that offers programs in my field and the director sounded interested in what I had to offer. So I should be meeting with her in a couple of weeks as well. DH and I discussed me perhaps working part-time. I think this would be better for us to adapt after LO comes. I don't know where that will leave us financially, but I don't want to stress too much about it. I think we can manage a couple of years until hubby finishes school. Also I think I've decided not to go with the COBRA insurance after all. It's really expensive and the lower premiums have high deductibles, that I might as well just pay cash instead. Plus we may only be needing it for a month or two. I don't know what my prescriptions will cost, but again not too worried about it. But I'm going to try and use a drug savings card. I didn't work out today. I'm kinda just taking it easy and relaxing this week. I promised myself I'd start next week if not this weekend. Other than that just waiting on CD13 when I will get the u/s. I will be calling my doc's office tomorrow and getting quotes for self pay. No real update. Same old, same old.
Until next time, I want to leave you with this pic one of the gals on TB found. I needed a little laugh.
Until next time, I want to leave you with this pic one of the gals on TB found. I needed a little laugh.
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