A Change is Gonna Come - Weeks 4-5

BETA #1 (8/25/2014) -  219
BETA #2 (8/27/2014) - 605
BETA #3 (8/29/14) - 1258

It's official!  We're pregnant!  I still can't believe it!

I tested another 2 times before the first BETA testing day came.  Then a couple of more times after that.  I was so paranoid.  I sent DH out to the dollar store to pick me up a few HPTs so that I could keep testing.  Finally after BETA#2 came back more than doubled, that eased my mind and I stopped POAS.  I was a little relieved.  Then my BETA#3 couldn't come soon enough and seemed like it took FOREVER for the clinic to update my results.  Everything is looking so good.  Our BETA #4 and first pregnancy ultrasound is scheduled for Wednesday the 3rd.  I can't wait!  DH will go with me. We will get to see the first picture of our little Frijole!

Symptoms Week 4-5: 
I am still unsure of how far along I am.  My pregnancy apps are calculating from my LMP (5 wks), but I know I ovulated late, so I adjusted it to when I think I ovulated and so it puts it back a few days (4.5 wks).  I'm looking forward to Wednesday so they can better calculate my EDD based on baby's measurements.  As for symptoms, I'm still having the twinges of pain/cramp-like sensations every once in awhile, but not as often as the first few days.  My breasts are still really tender to the point where it hurts to even wear a shirt sometimes.  I've noticed that they are changing too.  They are getting darker and my nipples are getting bigger.  I told this to DH and he looked at them and said he doesn't notice anything.  No real cravings yet, although I seem to be liking spicy, hot foods a lot more lately.  I have always liked spicy foods, but it seems l am adding hot sauce to a lot more things now.  Also my sense of smell seems more sensitive.  I am still on the progesterone which will probably continue through my first trimester.  DH took my first pregnancy photo today.  I'm a mess, but I couldn't care less... there's a baby growing in me!  As you can see, not much has changed.  I'm a big girl mind you, so most of what you see is me in all my natural glory,  LOL.

 

 

I've been doing a lot of research and reading.  It's so fun and interesting.  So far I've been reading.  "The Day-By-Day Pregnancy Book",  "How to Exercise When You're Expecting", "Your Pregnancy Week By Week", and "What to Expect the First Year".

 

 

 

I'm learning a lot of new things about not only pregnancy and how my body will be changing, but about what to expect for the future and how to take care of myself and baby.

 

I've also started looking into birthing centers, which if you recall from my earlier blogging, is where I would like to labor and deliver baby.  So far, I'm leaning more towards a birth center not too far from where I live.  I called them a couple of days ago to ask how soon I should come in for my first visit since I just found out I'm pregnant.  They said as soon as I can.  I told them I would schedule an appointment as soon as my RE released me from his care.  I explained that I had fertility treatments.

 

I am also looking forward to my local Birth Fair, which is a small convention/symposium catered to Natural Baby care (i.e. cloth diapering, baby wearing, birth centers, holistic therapy, breastfeeding, etc.)  It will be in early October.

 

The other day I had DH bring in and dust off the boxes of pre-baby buys I had stored away.  I remember how sad a day it was when I packed up everything for storage.  It was such a sweet, sweet feeling having him bring it in and opening it up again.   I've also started working on a baby/registry list.  I'm a planner and I'm OCD when it comes to making lists, just ask DH.  So I've done some research online and on community message boards so that I know what to expect when baby comes home.  We have a few things already from my pre-baby buying a few years ago and I started an Amazon Baby Registry back then which I've slowly added to over the years.  I still keep up with my YouTube Vloggers, and some of them have had babies, so whenever they would recommend a product, I'd add it to our registry.

 

Hubby and I have already discussed wanting to know the gender of baby Frijole.  We want to know as soon as possible so that we can start planning buys and decorating the nursery.  Plus we still have the name thing to figure out.  Even before getting KU, we had pretty much decided on a boy's name but even now, we are still undecided on a girl's name.  And for some reason, both of our mom want a  boy.  DH and I would be happy either way.  We also decided we would be doing a 4D US as soon as we're allowed.  I already know of a few places, and Groupon offers some great deals as well.

 

I am invited to one of my BFF's friend's daughter's 1st birthday next weekend, which will be out of town.  I am thinking of sharing the news with her then.  Plus, I also lent her a bassinet when she first found out she was pregnant, so I'm hoping I can bring it back with me. 

 

So I think I will let my sister know this Friday about our good news.  Our relationship has been kind of strained recently with all that's been going on in my family.  But I hope she can put that aside and be happy for us.  I want her to know she will know before any of my friends.

 

So now to enjoy the rest of our Labor Day weekend....



I'm BAAAAAACK!!!

OMG!
OMG!
OMG!
Is this a dream?!!! Is this really happening?!!!  Almost four years and I thought I'd never see the day!
It is true... believe it... it's our time... we were meant to be .... parents.... finally.
(Cue happy tears)

 

 

So it really hasn't been a secret.  We've been TTC once again and started about 3 months ago.  I finally decided to book a consult with an RE.  We had a lot going on in our lives so what prompted me to start another round of TTC, I have NO EARTHLY idea.  We were going through some family drama.  I was working a lot... working long hours.  I had started losing weight the first few months of the year, but with all the added stress going on, I started slowly putting it back on.  So I don't know why I thought of all times, why this would be the right time.  I guess maybe I wanted to think about something other than what was going on at work and at home.  But either way, in the beginning of this year, I remember thinking 2014 was going to be different.

 

I had decided to change my lifestyle and my weight was a priority.  I have been obese nearly my entire life and had ups and down the past few years.  TTC was in the back of my mind, as it was most of these past four years, but I knew I had to change myself and my habits if we were to invest time and money into future rounds of treatment.

 

So back when we first started TTC, hubby had a SA at this place called Houston Fertility Institute.  A few months ago, I started doing research on it, saw some good reviews, and saw that they were in network with our insurance company.  I decided this would be a good place to start. 

 

April 2014:

DH and I met with Dr. Williams for our consultation.  I was really nervous because I knew going to a specialist was serious business.  I came prepared with all my past medical records and history (I even had my records sent there before I even had the appointment scheduled).  We were lead into the doctor's office where he did our consult.  He asked us our medical history and explained the different services we would get while being under his treatment.  I presented my history and records and we were set up with appointments here and there, quickly thereafter.  I hadn't had AF in three months and they sent me home with a script for Provera to bring her in.  I was told to call the day she came in for her visit. They also sent DH to have another SA done sometime in the next week.

 

Two weeks passed and AF came.  I called the office and had my lab work and first ultrasound set up.   They drew 7 vials of blood and I was so happy that the tech got my vein on the first stick.  I've always had issued getting my blood drawn.  After that I got the baseline US and afterwards they sent me home with a script for BCP!  BCP, can you believe it?!  I haven't been on those in 4 years.  I was kind of sad for a moment, but after the research I've done, I knew I'd probably be on them sooner or later.  The doc also said he wanted to do an SIS (saline infused sonogram) on me to make sure my tubes weren't blocked and to see if all was well inside my uterus.  This was to be done at a surgical center since they would anesthetize me. We set up the procedure for the following month.

 

May 2014

I was very nervous the day of the procedure and already we were coming out of pocket with expenses. DH was with me.  The procedure went well, but the doc did notice I had some extra tissue at the top of my uterus which he removed with D & C while they had me under.  This really surprised me as I wasn't expecting something so invasive.  Luckily, my tubes weren't blocked and they sent me home that same day.  I was crampy for a few days afterwards and had bleeding as is typical after such procedure.  They had me continue the BCP and sent me home with a prescription for Estrace to rebuild my uterine lining.

 

June 2014

We finally were done with procedures returned back to the office to meet up with Dr. Williams for a rundown of all that had gone on the past month and a half.  He sat down with us again and went over everything.  Again, he went over the results of the SIS and also my bloodwork and US where he diagnosed me with PCOS (well... duh), and other than that everything else was fine, including on DH's end.  He told us he would put me on Clomid (uh again?) once I stopped bleeding. I was hesitant to take it since it didn't work the past few times and explained this to the doc.  But he assured me it was a different dosage.  I had taken 50 mg and 75 mg previously before and this time I would be taking 100 mg.  He also sent in a script for Ovidrel (to trigger, as we had chosen to BD) and Endometrin (progesterone).   I had to order my meds through a private pharmacy that specializes in fertility meds and does home delivery. 

 

They told me to call back once I stopped bleeding so they could run baseline bloodwork and instruct me when to start Clomid.  And I swear I bled for one month straight.  I called the office every week to reschedule my monitoring since they couldn't do my US while bleeding.  I has was bleeding heavily!  I grew concerned by the 3rd week because I was soaking at least 5 pads a day and I had already rescheduled my appointment 3 times. 

 

July 2014

Finally, a month later my bleeding had lightened up and so they asked me to come in for the baseline US and blood work. They started me on Clomid that day and scheduled me for an appointment 2 days later to monitor how the Clomid was doing.  I went in 2 days later and told them I had started bleeding heavily again.  They drew my blood and did an US and saw that my follicles were still small and that my lining was thin.  They told me to come back in two days that maybe the Clomid hadn't done its work yet.  I asked about the bleeding and they said not to worry that even if it was AF, Clomid would still work.  They sent me home with a prescription for Vivelle-Dot which are estrogen patches.  I came back two days later still heavy bleeding.  My follicles had hardly grown at all and they told me to come back one more time the next week for US and blood work.  They increased my estrogen.  I was still having bleeding when I went in for my 3rd monitoring appt.  This time the doctor did my US and he did a small procedure where he siphoned out the fluid out of my uterus.  This was SOOOO painful I almost cried, but when he suggested we do another SIS instead, I told him to just continue the procedure and I would tolerate it as best as I could.  I'm just glad I got though it.  I was so painful.  He said that should help with the bleeding and suggested I come in one more time in two days to check everything.  Sure enough, that night my bleeding had started getting lighter and by the time in I went in for my final monitoring for that cycle I was just spotting lightly.  I knew that this cycle was going to be a fail.  My body just felt all wrong and I was just waiting for the news.  Sure enough, at my next appointment, they said my follicles were just too small and they were cancelling the cycle.  I was disappointed, but not surprised.  They told me to call once the bleeding stopped completely and they would initiate the next cycle

 

I called them a week later to tell them the bleeding stopped and they called in a prescription for Provera to bring on AF.  I explained that I had JUST stopped bleeding and they said that wasn't a period that my hormones were still adjusting to everything and that the Provera would initiate a new cycle.  They told me to call once AF showed after taking Provera.

 

Lo and behold, 3 days after taking the Provera AF reared her ugly head once again on July 24.  I called the office and told them and they asked if I was sure it was a full bleed and not spotting. I told them I was spotting the day before, but this day I actually had to wear a pad.  So began my next cycle.  They asked me to come in the next day for my baseline US and blood work.  That day they also called in the script for Bravelle as I had told them that I was wanting to move forward with the injections for this cycle.

 

They ran my baseline and by the 25th I was starting injections!  At first I was doing 1 vial.  Then increased to 2 vials by the 2nd week, and a few days later I was on 3 vials.  Monitoring came every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and I was so stressed out with missing work every morning.  I finally had to tell my employers and ask them to change my schedule so that I started an hour later every morning.  I explained that I was doing fertility treatments and getting monitored every other day.  They were very understanding, however this did not make me feel any better since I don't like to inconvenience people, especially my bosses. 

 

August 2014

My last monitoring day was on August 8 and I got the good news that I could trigger that following evening!  I was soooo happy.  That means that I had mature follies waiting to be released.  On the 9th, Saturday, DH administered the trigger and then we were instructed to BD the next day and the day after that.  Because we were so intent on making this happen, we BDed that Sunday, two times on Monday and again on Tuesday.  We were in BD heaven!  Now we waited.  I was told to also start my progesterone on the 14th and come in for my first BETA on 8/25.  That day seemed soooo far away.  I cheated and tested that weekend after triggering and got a BFN.  Not too disappointing considering I knew implantation may not have even occurred.  The wait was sooo long and I told DH that we were definitely gonna test next weekend at home.  I HAD to know before I went to get my blood drawn.

 

That following week passed by uneventful.  I had very tender breasts, but had been like that since a couple of days after starting the Bravelle, so I didn't look much into that.  Last Friday came and the day couldn't pass by fast enough for me.  I tried to busy myself with work and running errands, but I was constantly thinking about testing the next day.  I ran out and got another box of pregnancy tests just to double check the digital ones I already had.  That evening I started having these cramp-like sensations yet they were a bit different from PMS cramps.  I was still hopeful, since I read that pregnancy signs are a lot like PMS.  I also had a decreased appetite, but I thought that may be because I was stressed about testing.

 

Finally the Saturday came when I had planned to test.  I got up at 7:30 am and was so nervous, I almost didn't catch my urine in the cup.  LOL.  I first pulled out a dollar pregnancy test and while still sitting on the toilet did my four drops into the sample well.  As I was washing my hands, I was telling myself not to look at the test... to wait for hubby, but I couldn't resist.  The allotted two minutes hadn't even passed so I thought, "It wouldn't be really cheating since I haven't given it enough time yet".  So I looked down.  Is that a faint second line I see?  I think so... Don't look too hard Mely, do a digital test and let hubby give the final answer.  Quickly I look away and dunked in the Clear Blue Digital test.  I see the timer start to blink so I'm good to go.  I run to the bed and start the timer for 2 minutes.  I know it's gonna be positive.  I know I didn't imagine that faint line on the dollar cheapie. 

 

1 minute passed...

 

I wake up DH.  "Baby, you ready to see the test?"  He stirs and I see that a minute and a half has passed.  I keep trying to wake him.  "Baby, the test is almost done, you ready?"  He slowly wakes up and my timer goes off.  I tell him I just tested and the 2 minutes have passed.  It's time to read it.  I get my phone ready to record his reaction.  He goes into the bathroom and looks down at the tests.  I have both the digital and the cheapie sitting on the countertop.  I see him looking back and forth between the two.  He's asking which one he's supposed to be reading.  I tell him either or, but probably the digital is easier to read.  He turns to look at me with a huge grin on his face and nods at me a few seconds then gives me the thumbs up.  I say, "Really, baby, really?  Is it real?  I wasn't sure."  "Yes, Yes" he's saying as he's nodding. He asked if I had seen it and I said not really that I had done the cheapie first and thought I saw a line but didn't want to look too closely.  I knew the digital one was more precise.  He brought me the stick and I stared at it...

 

PREGNANT

 

One beautiful, life changing word.  We are both grinning ear to ear.  Tears of joy in our eyes.  I don't want to scream because we have roomates and I didn't want them to know.  Just to be sure, I take one more test.  I picked up CVS early response tests.  I dunked the stick and watched it every second.  Within a minute the + sign was already showing!  I didn't even have to wait the whole 2 minutes!  I showed DH.  We were so happy.  3 tests, all very positive.  I can't even begin to explain how I felt.  It felt very unreal and dreamlike, that's for sure.  I must've looked at those tests a million times that day.

 

Our first thoughts were who were we going to tell.  I definitely wanted to tell my parents and he wanted to tell his mom.  I told him that next would be my sister in a few weeks, then close friends a few weeks after that.  Finally when we are through our first trimester we will announce on Facebook as well as telling our coworkers.

 

We went to breakfast then headed to my parents' house.  I said that we were in the area and decided to stop by to say hi.  I got my parents in the same room and asked my mom if she noticed "that spot" on my dad's leg.  She asked "What spot?" and bent down to look.  I pulled out my tests and held them in front of her.  "Did you notice this?" I asked holding them out.  She took them from me and looked at them.  She gasped in shock then started smiling and came to hug me.  My dad was still clueless.  I told her to show him and she handed him the digital one since it was easier to read.  He looked at it and smiled then suggested I take another to me sure.  My mom handed him the other one as I said "I already did.  I took three!"  He looked at it and came to hug me.  Then hugged DH and so did my mom.  We talked a little longer then headed to my MIL's house.

 

When we got there, her car wasn't there so DH called her on her cell.  She was out grocery shopping and he told her to hang on and not leave there as we were on our way.  He was so excited to tell her so he wasn't gonna let a little grocery shopping trip stand in the way.  LOL.  We drove to her neighborhood grocery store and found her standing at checkout.  She was with a family friend so I knew she wasn't gonna be the only one we were going to be telling the news to.  DH went up to her and gave her a hug and told her he wanted to show her something.  He handed her the 2 sticks and she looked at them.  The family friend "got it" before my MIL did and gasped and had this huge smile.  Then my MIL caught on and started smiling and thanking God and gave us both hugs.  We helped her check out and carry her groceries to her car.  She was giving me advice about being pregnant, but also warning me to not get too excited as it was still very early.  She said it was gonna be a boy because she felt it.  She was saying how she prayed she would be a grandmother before she died, as DH is an only child.  We talked a little longer before we left.  We were on cloud nine.

 

Now the real preparation begins.... what do we do now?



Sad :(

Oh wow!
What a wakeup call...
Yeah... It still hurts...
Be brave and put on a happy face, you can do it.

Let me explain.  I'm here at work and one my doc's wife walks in with their kids.  Kids are super cute. They are saying hello to everyone and my coworkers are smiling and laughing.  "Merry Christmas, Feliz Navidad" the little 6 year old girl is saying.  2 year old boy is just looking around and getting passed btwn the arms of other co-workers. And me....i have to try and duck out to the bathroom before anyone sees the forced fake smile and get it together before the tears start flowing.  Almost... Trying to hold it in, but that lump is just sitting there at the back of my throat. Tears sitting in the wells of my eyes and now the nose is running.

I'll blame it on allergies

A Much Needed Update

So as 2013 comes near the end, I can't say that we've had any life-changing events.  In fact it was pretty unremarkable... except for the whole foreign student exchange thing.

And what's up with that you ask?  Well it's a pretty long story, but to sum it up, both girls have been placed with new host families.  Due to a combination of different personalities, different lifestyles, and different interests everyone at home was a little unhappy and frustrated with each other.  Girls were with us only two and a half months, but we did learn a lot during that time.

1. We are never doing it again... lol. 
2.  Fostering is out of the question
3.  I learned I really enjoy cooking
4.  I miss the gym... really
5.  I miss my "ME" time
6.  I took sleeping sans clothing for granted
7.  I really have a threshold for pleasing people
8.  DH needs to change his hours if we are to ever have kids of our own
9.  I really love my furbabies
10.  .... and this was a big one... I don't think we are ready to be parents

Yes, I know... is anyone every "really" ready?  But this experience was such a huge disappointment that it made me question whether I really wanted to have kids.  Especially with the hours DH and I work.  If I wasn't at work, I was at home with the girls.  It was tiring tending to them... and they're 17!  DH had it easy.  He only saw them on the weekends.  He works M-F 3-11pm, so he left for work right before the girls got home from school and by the time he came home, we were all asleep.  I begged him to take them on the weekend.  I dreaded waking up on the weekend... what kind of life is that?  Obviously I wasn't happy with the situation either.  DH tells me our kids will be different, because we will raise them the way we want.  I see his point, but still I realized how much I enjoy my alone time.  I dunno, maybe I'm just tired with the whole TTCing issue and it comes out this way but either way, I told hubby I'm not ready for TTC anytime soon.

Which brings me to a new subject.  AF has finally arrived after CD253!  What the what?!  So what happened?  Well first off, I didn't really miss it one bit.  No worries on spotting, staining.... no having to buy pads and tampons for 8 months.  No PMS, no menstrual cramps.  Yeah, it was fun while it lasted but deep down inside I knew it wasn't right.  But with no health insurance and keeping my mind busy with other things (and other people) I just didn't deal with it.  Now that the girls are gone, I'm back on track with working out, and I've learned a new hobby in cooking (so now we don't eat out as much) I've decided to focus on me and my health.  Especially when this phase of not wanting kids passes, I'm gonna want to jump back on that TTC train.  So about 3 weeks ago I started back on Vitex and progesterone cream.  I figured my PCOS was probably out of control and I needed a much needed visit from AF eventually.  So I did a little research to refresh my memory on how to use Vitex and the cream as an aid in managing PCOS.  I'm taking Vitex 2x a day and using 40mg of progesterone twice a day as well.  Lo and behold 2 weeks later she makes a surprise visit.  Score one for Mely!  While off the vitex and progesterone during AF, I start to incorporate a daily cinnamon supplement as well.  I've done the research and confident that the cinnamon will help in managing these health issues.  I'm taking a 1000mg tablet twice a day.  It's proven to help control blood glucose and insulin resistance... the major dilemma in PCOS.  The vitex helps regulate menstrual cycles and the cream is used to help boost progesterone levels.  These are all natural ways to maintain and regulate the female reproductive system so I'm hoping that with proper diet and exercise, I will soon be on my way to being PCOS-free.  I guess in a way, I'm indirectly TTCing... lol.  I just want to feel better and funny enough, I think it's working not only has AF come (I'm CD 14), but I feel more feminine... I feel like wearing makeup everyday.

That's about it.  Not planning for much in 2014, just want to get healthier.  Until next time...

Grocery Shopping

I'm starting a new grocery trend and so far 1st week has gone well.  Our family has dwindled back down to the two of us and our fur babies... more on that another time.  So as usual we eat out often and go grocery shopping maybe every 4-6 weeks.  Bad, I know.  So basically you can guess we live off frozen, non-perishable food items.  Produce isn't seen very much and it's unfortunate as this type of lifestyle isn't helping our weight/fertility issues.  So now that I've had a brief time playing "mom", I've learned to appreciate cooking.  I'm taking a small step to help us eat better, and save more money.  Back in my couponing days, I grew fond of a particular site foodonthetable.com  It is a site that matches up things that are on sale at your local grocery store with recipe ideas.  That way, if you enjoy saving a few bucks, you can plan your week's menu accordingly.  Problem was at the time 1) I wasn't much of a food planner 2) I was always on some sort of diet 3) I didn't really cook and 4) I had better things to do.  Now that I've cooked my fair share of dinners, and now that we're trying to pinch pennies until the end of the year, I've decided to change things up a little.  I've been looking at a few blogs about menu planning for both grocery shopping hauls and losing weight and now I think I'm ready for the challenge.  So here's what I've been doing for the past two weeks.

We live pretty close to 3 major grocery store chains (2 of which give us fuel points when we shop there, so these are the stores I prefer to shop at... might as well save money on gas too!)  So I first go to foodonthetable.com and search for my local store's sale items.  I go through the list and jot down any items that we are in need of (including non food items) or that we eat regularly.  Anything else that pops out, looks interesting, or is a really good sale I jot down too.  So I usually end up with a list of about 2 dozen items.  Then I grab the list off the fridge of the things we need to get (regardless of sale) or running low on and I write those items down too.

Next, I search for recipes on the website of foods that I have "extra" of (i.e. can of beans I have sitting around, pack of rice I need to use, the shrimp that needs to be cooked, etc).  Then I match those recipes with any other items I had listed down and... VOILA!  There's dinner!  For instance, I had a can of coconut milk sitting in my pantry, and half a bag of rice... I type in coconut milk and up pops up Thai chicken with basil and coconut milk!  MMMMM.... So then I see that the chicken is on sale and so I highlight it.  On the back of the page I number 1-7 (7 days a week).  Next to #1 I put Thai chicken and rice.  Another example:  I have two cans of navy beans I need to use.  Search pulls up navy bean and ham soup.  Ham is on sale and so is the celery (another ingredient).  List that down on #2.  And so on.  I continue until I fill up 5 lines worth of dinner meals.  Line 6 and 7 is "extra" considering it's just the two of us and we usually eat leftovers one or two days out of the week.  Also, if I'm too tired to cook one day, there's always a spare pizza or frozen pasta dish in the freezer.

Anything left on the list that I haven't paired with any menu item gets crossed off the list.  I usually rewrite this list and organize it a little more according to store aisle and BOOM there's my grocery haul for the week.  So far so good!  I haven't calculated our savings yet as we have just started this trend and when we first went shopping our refrigerator and pantry were almost empty, so it was a big haul.

When we get back from the store and put up all the groceries, I write on the magnetic memo board on our fridge the menu for the week.  I don't like assigning meals to certain days as maybe I'm too tired to cook or I don't feel like that food that day.  Having a list of meals makes it look like a restaurant menu and so I can pick what I want to eat or hubby can pick what he wants to make on the weekend (We have an agreement he cooks on the weekends if I don't offer).

If I am craving anything or I run across something interesting while searching recipes, I'll jot it down and make note for the next week. 

And that's about it.

What about lunch and dinner you ask?  Well, for lunch it's usually leftovers and I cook enough to last for about 3 days (damn these family recipes) or we always stock up on frozen microwave meals (hubby prefers these since there is a plethora of choices and since he doesn't have a fridge at work, the frozen meals keep till it's time for his lunch).  And breakfast?  I eat breakfast on the go, so that means a cup of yogurt, a piece of fruit, a microwave breakfast sandwich, or just plain ole coffee.  So those are always a staple in our home.  Hubby usually does cereal, or leftovers from the night before.  So as you can see, not much planning needed there.  Maybe when the weight loss thing needs to get more serious, that'll change (it always does).

So there you go.  My grocery shopping and menu planning in a nut shell (yeah, right)

Trouble in CAR-idise BEDA#5

Sorry for skipping a couple of days, but as you can see from the title of today's blog, hubby and I have been experiencing some car issues. 

BEDA #4

I'm at work this morning, 5 minutes late but who's counting.  I kind of wish I'd taken the day off.  There's really nothing for me to do here today.  I'm contracted to do a particular type of testing and they schedule me to be here at the hospital every Monday.  Well today I'm here and though there are patients that need testing, there is no doctor here to sign off on the tests.  Therefore, I can't test today.  So I'm sitting here twiddling my thumbs.  This is getting really old.  I mean sure some people would say "I'd love to get paid to sit around and do nothing", and I do enjoy it.... to an extent.  But I'm that type of person who needs to stay busy and feel like I've earned my pay.  I kind of feel like when I'm here and not testing, everyone in my department notices.  But it's out of my hands, it's up to the hospital to hire more doctors in my specialty.  Plus the days drag on and on when I'm not testing.  I haven't even been here an hour and I'm bored out of my mind... and I've got 7 more hours of this bullsh*t left today.

On days that I'm not testing, I try to take advantage of learning new skills, so I try and shadow other techs to learn about other testing.  Most of the techs here in this department are pretty cool and willing to help train you.  Plus there are students that come in a couple times a week from the local college, so the techs are used to it.  Today the students are here and I understand they have 1st priority.  However there is one tech here without a student and when I ask if I can work with her today, she gives every excuse under the sun to keep me away.  I understand "No" the first time, don't keep rubbing it in.  So I'm stuck here in my "room" (which is basically a storage closet) trying to keep busy... which right now means writing this blog.  I pulled out a couple if books so that I can try to study today, but I have a short attention span so we'll see how long that lasts.

This is starting to get real old, and I dunno how much longer I can do this.  I've given myself 6 more months to see if things change.  If not, I'm ready to turn in my resignation letter.

Mood: frustrated