On Friday evening (two days ago) I got news that I was laid off effective immediately. My company shut down due to recent changes in Medicare/Medicaid legislative cuts. After finding out via a mandatory company teleconference, I was a hormonal mess. JC was at work and I got to only speak to him briefly. I was alone to deal with the impact. Immediately, I texted a few of my close girlfriends to tell them what was up and that I may be MIA for a while. Last year I was laid off from the same company due to other reasons, and the changes put me into a slight depression. So I was expecting the same this time around as well.
I know it may be a little early to worry but with all that was going on in TTC life, I was pretty upset. I didn't know where this would put us. Our insurance was covered under me and with the job loss, I now won't have any medical insurance. The COBRA premium is to costly for us to afford and hubby's insurance is also very expensive. What has made this news even worse, was I just had started my cycle the previous evening. I was so happy, and so excited (as you read in my previous blog) to start the new cycle. The morning of the layoff, before receiving the news, I had scheduled all my appointments for monitoring and picked up my new prescriptions for this second medicated cycle. That excitement was short lived, as you could have expected, when I received Friday's sad news.
I'm still kind of in shock from the news and decided I really couldn't do anything until the new year started (which is in a few days). With the upcoming holiday, and with everything being closed, I decided that Wednesday, Jan 2nd is when I would start putting in calls to previous employers and filing for unemployment. Hubby and I discussed if we should move forward or not with this TTC cycle, and we both decided that yes, we would since I already had paid for the meds. If it happens and I get a BFP, we would deal with it when the time came. In the meantime, hubby will continue working and still plan on resuming his classes this coming semester. I have already applied to several jobs online. I am trying to remain optimistic that things will turn out okay. I am still worried about our financial situation since bills will continue to come in. I will try and stay focused on losing weight, especially now that I am no longer employed. I can dedicate this free time to staying dedicated to my weight loss.
That is all for now. I will leave you with a pic of all the meds I'm on since TTC. I am still amazed that I take this many pills just so that I can try to get pregnant. From not taking anything, having no medical illness up until this year when diagnosed with PCOS... to now taking 7 meds. These include cabergoline, levothyroxine, metformin, progesterone, clomid, prenatal vitamins, and HCG. I used to also take prednisone when first diagnosed. But they took me off that when they saw that wasn't helping any. You can also see my weekly pill organizer and see what I'm taking daily. This also varies week to week, depending on where I'm at in my cycle.
So here's to a new year and a new beginning....
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